general # two

It's cold in here. I'm sitting in the computer room, listening to the Gin Blossom's song Follow You Down. I'm thinking about this summer, the way in which the last four weeks have gone, and I believe that there should be one overriding question posed: Am I better off than I was this time a month ago?

The basic problem with posing that question is that i'm just too tired to provide an honest answer. I'm too tired to consider fully all the aspects of the equation which would make for a truly representative answer. I guess that's the way it goes though. At least i'm doing something honest with my time. I'm not just wasting it by doing nothing, i'm not just out causing trouble all day long. At least i'm earning money, however small of an amount. These are positive things. Though I wouldn't say that they are all that's needed to provide a positive answer to the overriding question.

What i'm doing doing is earning as much money as I could be. I'm not getting as much done for the upcoming school year and for the CRs as I should be. These things really bother me. I want to be the best leader that I can be. Also, I know that is my responsibility for me to do both of these things, not a luxery. I'm not intending to shirk anything, although it feels like that's what I'm doing.